Saturday, September 10, 2011
wow... the grasses are overgrown already... revive... time to voice my thoughts.
it has been 5days... since buu buu abandon me.. very tired emotional break down, able to sleep for the past 5days i have not been sleeping more then 2hours ended up during work when resting took a nap... i don't believe buu buu doesn't have feelings for me anymore...
after work went home prepare my stuffs to pass to her as she needed and i heard it... hey i want back the communication book! please write with me please.. went to the place where we usually slack off when we are still taking public transport, now i do believe public transport will gain our bondings as when i'm driving i'm concentrating she's sleeping = no communication at all... why? why i didn't realize that... baby why don't you mention it to me... =( back to what i want to say, reach there at about 9pm. drop her a sms but she replied coldly as what i did before "No, Outside" i felt it.
so i play a bet with myself just for fun if buu buu were to walk home she will definitely pass by the place where i am, if she took a bus instead i may not have the chance to see her passing by...
abt 12pm no reply from her at all, guessed she's asleep i walked over to her hse to see if her room is still lighted on but no it's already off. i lost the bet.. i drove and park at her hse below waiting for her to come down at 4am, 4hours of waiting is nothing to me.. i've waited for you for 3years (after 2 relationship you have gone by) what is 4hours.. about 3.45am i text a wakee wakee call she replied =)) her room lights are on followed by off i don't know why my heartbeats so fast thinking what will happened if she saws me... will she get angry will she ask me to go away will she talk to me will she hear what i want to say?
the lift sounds and the sound of luggage wheels dragging along, she didn't saw me i followed her back... she didn't notice my car.. i say.. "girl" she was shock and smiling i don't know what it means why is she smiling? is she happy to see me? i don't know but she didn't scold me i passed her the "our book of communication" and a hand fan as she requested before she accept it. i smiled at the same time pulling my tears back she mention that i'm in a bad shape.. (of course i'm in a bad shape ='( why you choose to leave me... i don't know why...). she ask me to go home and sleep because i have work later on, i told her after wr dad come to pick you then i leave. she says okay... i want a hug from her but she rejected... heartaches alot...
i tail them, but some how she notice it and sms me... asking me to go home and sleep if not she will get angry (she still concern about me) okay i agreed i turn away to KPE and head for home...
immediately when i reach home i keep spamming her smses wanting her to reply.. after awhile i fall asleep waking up at 7am wishing her bon voyage. prepare for work head to work! i'm happy.. am i? i'm happy that i believe she still loves me otherwise she wouldn't even to bother me at all. =)) i will not give up this relationship.. it takes 2 hands to clap but i didn't even clap at all. i'm firm of getting this relationship back in piece trust me baby i will dedicated my time for you, i'll be come stickier and stickier then you ever wanted... =) i'm having a positive mind set now! don give up on me baby buuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.Labels: life, revive, serlynn lek
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