Thursday, September 15, 2011
just this short hour i've been crying very very hard thru out even my pillow is soak with my tears it just keep flowing out... the pain is excessive the thoughts that we can never be together is extremely painful.. i believe i will end up in a state of self torture, i will start cutting myself... i will go crazy.. start using my head to bang the hard wall... driving dangerously... i hope i will admit into IMH.. where i can just hurt myself every single moment... i've lost hope in life, unable to continue anymore..
i'm sorry dad,
i'm sorry mum,
i'm sorry sis, please listen to dad's and mum's teaching... please study hard.. do not end up like your useless brother like this...
i love you all... but i love you(zhi hui) most of all... if anything happens to me i don't want you all to blame her, it's not her fault, i'm unable to continue life i'm sorry for all the things i've did to make you all upset... i'm never a good son, i'm never a good brother, i'm never a good boyfriend... never...Labels: fallen, life, revive, serlynn lek
here is my story ...
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